Sorry if I've been vague-booking my mood on social media lately. My confession? I'm not good with math and my budget is shit. Unless some financial miracle happens, school will be back to being a daydream. I've applied for another type of student loan that might cover the rest of the cost of school, but it doesn't change the fact that I'll be taking a pay cut to work part time. I've got a lot of little things that I could cut out to save some cash, but it's going to be difficult.
I'm not a couponer. I don't follow budgets well. I don't track my spending hardly at all. I'm basically a 33 year old teenager after getting her first job. Look at all the monies I have!! I will spend it on Rockstar energy drinks and Amazon Prime! But in all seriousness, my entire paycheck goes to childcare. This whole school shindig is supposed to help me establish a real career where I could, potentially, afford to live without being completely dependent on support payments from my ex.
But, I do live in Hoighty Toighty, CA USA. Things are fucking expensive here and I'm a spoiled brat who is shitty with money. I can do this. Right? I can totally reign in my inner Millennial and tighten up. Though my essential bills like medications and electricity are pretty heavy. I worry about those, too.
I also need to be patient with myself. I'm working from the ground up and I've already upgraded my job once in the last year. I was making minimum wage at a grocery store seven months ago and have already negotiated my wages up a dollar past starting pay for my current job. I've been a stay-at-home mom my entire adult life outside of college until now. I'm in the same category as a young adult who just moved out of her parent's basement. I shouldn't expect my life to be together yet. And sometimes life isn't put-togetherable. Maybe a career with house and a car and a daily Starbuck's addiction isn't an attainable goal? Time to shift some expectations and grow up.
Today's subject line quote is from Nelson Mandela.
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I would be in the same finacial boat if I wasnt married anymore all of a sudden... I put my life and career on hold when we had kids. now post kids - I have no idea what I'd do. I don;t think that makes you an overgrown teen though - you are payign bills and putting childcare and bills first - that is full on adulting.
ReplyDeleteWorking a few hours a week part time from home and blogging doesnt make a steller resume. and the only budgetting I can do is to spend as little as possible because maths hurts my head.
I think you are doing great! You've already upgraded - you KNOW what you want to go to school for - that is awesome!! Keep on growing!